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My problem is saying "no" to people - if they need my help, I'm there. If they demand more from me, I find it somehow and do it. My T is trying to get me to accept that my feelings DO matter and that I need to listen to them and say "no" sometimes.

When I spoke to my T today and explained to him why I had cut myself so badly (I was angry with him because he never seemed to ask or reply to my emails when I do harm myself - I took it to mean that he was ignoring it like it didn't matter, so I made enough of a mess to show it DID matter and then I was angry with myself for even telling him so I punished myself by doing it more) he asked me if I wanted to quit.

I told my T that I wanted to get it under control, because it isn't anymore. I do it everyday, anytime, any place, numerous times. I can't seem to stop even though I know I shouldn't. He wanted me to acknowledge that as a "goal" of ours and I went around it by telling him that it does concern me, and at least let me get a handle on it first.

I know all of you care, and I'm not looking for anyone to really "do" anything, except listen to me babble and contribute input/ideas if any. It is enough that I am able to come here and talk about without people looking at me like I am a nutcase.

Would you please send me the site you mentioned? I have been reading and checking on a number of them online, and yours has interested me.

Thanks for caring. ::::::::::::hugging Peanut, Hippo, Fuzzy, and of course Jill, very tightly::::::::::::::::::::