Psychiatrist said that I can be managed as an outpatient, at least for now... but hospitalization is still on the table in case things get any worse. He's increasing my abilify to 20mg, and he wants me to take 1mg klonopin twice a day. Normally that dose would totally knock me out, but with as agitated as I've been, it's just enough to keep me fairly calm and sane. He's convinced that increasing the abilify will get me out of this mess, and that the klonopin will help me stay sane until the abilify kicks in. I guess we'll find out.

The psychologist was a little more worried, and at one point asked me if I would be "safe," or if I need to go somewhere where I can be safe. I reassured him that although I'm depressed by the course of the disease, I have no strong or clear plans to take my life. I just hate the thought that I'm likely facing a lifetime of intermittent misery thanks to my disease. He understood.

I'll see the psychologist again on Monday, and I see the psychiatrist again next Friday...