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Old Sep 30, 2010, 09:53 PM
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I am here while Rhiannon is within for t'was to be 2 phases of the moon but t'will now be 4 phases more than 2 weeks closer to 4. Though should she wish to venture out for short times I am happy. As she heals she may wish to show herself I do not know

This mind that we exist in when we are out is like a boat upon a violent sea, thoughts and feelings being tossed from one wave to t'other and never knowing if the boat will reach its destination whatever that destination will be; maybe another clearer thought or a thought without fear and anxiety. Though I think for the first time I do truly know what mind Rhiannon is in

I have never been without for more than short period of time as I know it. It is different to your clock, for I have never known a clock just fat and wax candles which take a set amount of the day or night to burn. One burns for a filled out day and one burns for a filled out night

I have never been out for more than 2 candles over a period of 10 candles of time which equals one of your full days and nights. Thus I have never had to live in the space Rhiannon calls her mind. It is very interesting to me to find that though I know I am stronger than Rhiannon, this mind she owns is trained well to think, act and react in certain ways to things

I now feel like a therapist who has to live in the mind of the one who comes to me for help. If only each therapist could live in the mind of their charge they would know and understand and never again question or refute their charges thoughts or feelings

This time will be a test for me, a long time since I stayed out for more than 2 candles. I find that from this aspect I see a different side of those within and I see the pressure placed upon Rhiannon by Megan. Megan is quiet to me as she knows I will not stand for her antics. Wee Meg is still the sweet and lonely child she has always been; afraid to approach for fear of rebuff and her pain of being invisible rarely talking, rarely bringing attention to herself. Whereas inside she is a happy safe and playful child if left alone by Megan

I will add to this diary each day of this experience
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