Yack it's ok to not know what to do sometimes. And you can cry if you want to, because sometimes crying helps. You're not anonymous and you're not a piece of garbage. You're so much more than that. You're a very special person and you mean a lot to all of us at PC, even if it doesn't always feel like it. You are not garbage, you are precious and special... *Hugs* Sorry I'm not much help.