WePow, you made me smile when you said I need to share this with my T. You are so brave. Me, not so much. I will put this on "hold" for now and when I am braver (hopefully not too long) I will bring it up with T. Right now Im trying to figure out why I reacted that way. Apparently my mind has some independency issues. Figures it can handle this on its own, not a concern. I keep thinking T is going to get tired of my resistance and lack of progress and say it is not working out. Although I am trying...hard. It just doesnt look like it. People often think Im not trying and I dont care when I do. Got to think about Ts trusting. Im not sure. This was like a red flag to me. That T sees me like everyone else. Glad your T was there for you.

Chris, I know logically, you are right.