I failed to comment on your temptation to over medicate. I take those pills myself and I did over medicate on them not long ago. It wasn't a good expierence. I thought I would just pass out peacefully. Instead I woke up with sever stomach cramps and threw up for what seemed to be hours. "After that I felt like I had the worse hang over of my life. I know it's hard and I know you are looking for a way out. I have been doing the same thing but tomarrow I am seeing my shrink of whom I deeply trust. I am terrified of going back into the hospital, but my husband is going in with me to help me tell the truth that will most certainly land me back in the mental hospital. At least it is a good place, nice and cozy seroundings etc, and I have been there enough that many of the staff will know me. If he advises me to go in I will do it so that they can change my meds and keep an eye on me in case things go wrong. I would rather go there then to feel this way day after day after day etc. Please, don't do it. Call your pdoc and make a emergency appointment. I dont know you, but I am a motherly person and I tell you the truth........I care about you with this issue. Please try not to hide any more......if you can make the effort and make that call. You can do it.