I went to the doctor to file a DNR, more or less because I have no desire to prolong a life where I have little emotion and suffer in chronic pain. He wants me to explain my reasoning for being so young and wanting such a document and as I explain it to him he tries to tell me that I have Fibromyalgia.

I have to say I was bothered he would even diagnose this at this time. Regardless of whether I have Fibro I already know the symptoms and treatments. I have been through the therapeutic and the medications several times over with different doctors for different reasons. To be diagnosed at this point with a "disease" that only exists because they lack better knowledge to say what is actually wrong actually succeeded in getting a rise out of me.

But then the doctor seemed so hopeful for me, and i just didn't have it in me to crush his hopes of being able to help me. I've been to my share of asinine doctors and the last thing I want to do is turn a decent one into a jerk because I refuse his treatment.

So I took his prescriptions with me, shoved them in my glove box and am waiting to go to the urgent care to get a doctor to sign my DNR.

My doc did agree to sign the DNR if I was unhappy with the treatment but I don't wish to wait the several months to tell him it is ineffective. My main motivation for the DNR is related to my blood pressure which varies between 170/95 up to 240/150. I already suffered a heart attack and a ruptured aneurysm in my leg. At this point if I have a stroke the last thing I want is to lose my intelligence. I've even decided to fore-go the use of my blood pressure/ heart medicine. If they could explain why my BP was so bad maybe I'd be willing to deal with it at this point, but I am tired of treating symptoms for problems they can't identify.

I may be only 27 but I've lived a longer life then most, if I am at peace with death then I see no reason I can't make proper arrangements like someone who is elderly.