Ooooergggg. Thought I was finished with all that. THOSE thoughts. And here I am, sitting in the dark before sunrise, being pulled back to THOSE thoughts. I have T today at 2 P.M. Why should THOSE thoughts come back now. They're kind of like gravity. They pull me in a certain direction. You KNOW what direction. And being pulled in THAT direction feels awful. Can't wait for the sun to rise. Yes, I'd like to go now. This is worse than any other period in my life. I thought I was free of all that. Good med, good T. Well, it's true I haven't been able to buy my meds for a month. That could be it. I thought I was fine and since I didn't have the money I could ignore the meds. If memory serves, I'm not the only idiot on PC who's tried that trick. Well, today I have money. So I guess I'll get the meds. It's just a co-pay, but it's a HIGH copay. Haven't had any money for the past two weeks. Eating out of cans from the basement. Now all out of cat food. Try explaining that to a cat. Or four cats. Maybe three, since one appears to be missing this morning. Pumpkin. Take care.