HOW can i disrespect you if i dont even know what it fricken means? How can i respect someone if i dont know what it means or never have gotten it. No one respects me. Im still treated like im 5. Maybe thats it i am 5. im not 18 im 5. they talk to me like im 5 look at me like im 5 and treat me like im 5. So now everyone is mad at me. My gma says i disrepect her and thanks for that. My cuz says im crabby. Well DUH im crabby every first of the month. There must be something more wrong with me. Who knows maybe i was right and i was mentally retarded. I definently feel retarded. Im sick of this.

I guess i got more to learn about being normal and functioning in this world as a normal person. Than a retard.

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Sorry for this post. just needed to vent my retarded little self out.

now if u excuse me im gonna go.

they dont have control over me but i do and i feel better if i cut myself now. They dont matter now, its just i matter and i need to cut out more of this stupid anger in me.

sorry