Hey midnight_soul,

I am not flying completely solo I have friends but my family don't know anything. They are under a lot of stress but my parents have been made redundant and there is still no jobs etc.

I only tell my friends some things though not everything and they dont know how low I feel at the moment. I don't want to dissapoint them

I am speaking to the samaritians and also a few people from a church. I have not been to church in years so I am still unsure about it.