My husband and I live in separate countries for the time being but are working on being physically together for good. He has had chronic depression but has been avoiding discussions about treatment, or so until we're physically together again.

Being depressed, my husband is sensitive of criticisms even if I butter them up with optimism and good intentions. Earlier today, I thought that we were finally going to have a respectful and positive outcome while ironing out our misunderstanding but he still ended up re-living all the tears that he's caused me even if I constantly tell him that I never count the mistakes we've made.

I love my husband so much, I really do. Sometimes, though, dealing with his depression drains me out emotionally and physically. How I wish I could have emotional stability and that his suicidal thoughts would go away. I miss my husband. I miss being able to talk to him about anything under the sun. I wish I could voice out my emotions and opinions to him without him getting oversensitive about it.

I don't want to give up even if he sometimes pushes me away, saying he doesn't make me happy anymore and just makes me cry all the time. I want to be strong because I love him.

I want to surround myself with people who understand what I'm going through and who believe that staying with my depressed husband doesn't mean I don't love myself anymore. Is there anyone out there like me? I'd be glad to hear from you...