Sugar, Sugar, Sugar,

You've had a lot of posts below to comfort you in your decision to cancel. And I hope they've attained their purpose: to cool you off and make you feel better. That may make it easier to read this post, which isn't in quite the same tone. Your T really needs to see you in ALL your states and moods. For him/her to get the best possble picture of you (necessary for him/her to decide on the best direction of therapy) you've got to be there however you're feeling. Even if you really don't want to go. ESPECIALLY if you really don't want to go. It's not really earthshaking if you don't go, it just lengthens the process. If you really want to work your way to mental health in as short a time as possible, you need to make yourself go. I would go even if I were drunk and babbling and my wife had to drive me over. If anyone wants therapy to be really worthwhile, it's a commitment. I want to get through the process in the shortest possible time, because I don't have much time. So I'll go as often as I can and never miss an appointment. Never. What I'm saying was not the case forty years ago. I screwed around in therapy then and wound up with nothing. I know what it is to "flunk" therapy. I will NOT do that again. Why not be serious about it now rather than have to do it over again later? Take care.