I'm a pro at the fake smile and fake laugh! I hate crying in front of people so I usually let go and break down when I'm alone in my room. It's better to talk about it but for some reason I have the hardest time doing that - probably because I can't exactly describe how I feel... It's nice to have PC because I know that when I'm feeling lame, people will understand how that works. The way I see it, we who suffer with bipolar "feel too much" meaning our emotions are much stronger and more intense. Get my drift?