I know, I am not lying to hurt them. I am lying to save them from getting hurt. I cant do anything right. I mess everything up.

Ha! Friends wats that again. My 2 closest friends ditched me. So I have made new friends. I dont want to ruin my friendships with them and I dont want to hurt them and get hurt myself. My ex friends really hurt me.

I hope I can get over this. At the moment I am not living a good life. I am floundering. Just need that magic wand which is non existent.

Most of my friends have done research on my illness(s) but its hard to talk to them. Dont want to depress them either.