Five weeks without cutting is about soon to be forgotten and abandoned. I will have to start over soon. I don't want replies saying "No come on you can do this" because I can't right now and I don't want to right now. I just want to give in and do it because it's so much easier that way. Yes, I no I'm weak and useless and pathetic. And I hate myself for it. But there's no other way right now.