hi trinity.....i too feel like what you described quite often. I think my t's are really helping with this by really being there for me. and i think once i can trust them ill have a better chance of trusting others. im really close to trusting both my t's and it comforts and makes me feel safer. Friends are hard cause ive been burnt after years of being friends with some people but in hindsight i can see signs that i missed of how they really are. i just didnt pay enough attention or i excused things way too easily. I believe we can all learn to trust again...but...it takes so much work and energy and strength. I hope your pain lessens soon......kasva