i had thought about this but i jus can't do it to them cos they have been so good to me and have helped me through a lot even though i have put them thru hell over the past 4 yrs and i'd probably be dead right now if it wasn't for them. Which at the moment i wish i was dead. I've also considered writin a letter or txin her but what ever i do she gonna ring me and want to discuss it. The longer i wait tho the worse i'm gettin!