it's difficult to see beauty when i'm depressed. that's why i think i don't see beauty in myself when i am sad. the overwhelming emotions of doom and gloom put a cloud over what may be more true. i have to tell myself often that it's the sadness..the depression..that makes me perceive things askew. when i feel better it's hard to remember sometimes how difficult it was when i was sad. perhaps that's a good thing. i'm more grateful tho when i feel the sadness lifts.