probibly the last person you want to get a responce from being the place i am in but i want you to know i think i understand.being in that place try to remember how scary and out of controle it can get and how things spiral,and how all alone you can feel.if you can choose to avoid being in such a horid place no matter how tireds you are it has to be better in the long run.right?sorry if im out of line.