Very good Peaches, I'm so glad that you opened up to T!!

Good awareness that you feel yourself uncomfortable with this new feeling of being pain free - good awareness! I can relate to what Canary said about feeling uncomfortable with free time. I had to work through this too. I had to learn to sit and be comfortable both with myself and with others. I'll have to think about how I did it but it did happen. My gut is telling me now that it has something to do with self worth. If you are sitting with free time you have time to be aware of yourself - yikes!

Yes, like you realize, no one is perfect and you can get hurt by others by accident (they aren't doing it on purpose) but I think that you are getting hurt by your past, not by your therapist (you are getting triggered and your pain from the past comes out). If you let this pain out in therapy it can't get triggered and then you won't be so afraid of getting hurt (because most of your hurt today is triggered hurt from yesterday).