Ithurts, most of those coolgirls I knew in school, I don't even care where they are in life right now. I hope they never have to go through what I did, but I would never want to have to be what they probably ended up as, without the extra dimension of life my experiences have shown me. Suffering does not automatically give you that. But overcoming it can, and using your experiences from it can. I can honestly say you will proabaly, given the right help and support, come out of this and know that the storm has tested you and found you strong. As for them, it has breezed by them, and their mascare has run. wish I could reach out and give you a huge and mighty HUGGGGSSSSSSSSS from someone who has been there, bought the shirt, and found that it shrank first time in the wash.