What motivates me to keep going is that from the age of 16 to around 28 I was on social security in hostels and temporary housing with my 3 children sometimes I had jobs but lost them due to not being able to afford childcare and redundancy. I remember how bad I felt. I used to pray for God to keep me going so that I would be able to keep my children with me. I am in my 50s now and most days I wake up I dread faching another day I dont want to get up but I force myself to as I dont want to lose my job I have been able to work for the last 14 years and keep going. I should not be so depressed as some people say to me what have you got to be depressed about I though you got over that years ago. I have to keep working as the alternative would be much worse.