Thank you all so much for your support. It is a process and there are times that are harder than others. Times when I really want to be able to go out with friends and not worry about what I can eat.

Dancing- Yes, I have done research. That was one of the first websites I found. I'm a member over there too. But sometimes it is frustrating because people there just tell you to buck up and be glad you aren't sick anymore when you need to vent. Here people understand that you can be glad you aren't having symptoms, and still can be angry and have overwhelming feelings about the whole thing. I think we are all better in touch with the emotional side of things.

Gus- You are so right. It does feel like a betrayal. Having mostly come to terms with my mental illness, this felt like a betrayal by the one thing I felt like I could trust to keep going (my physical body). I'm glad others understand.

Lizardlady- Yes it is a process. You are right. I'm glad to know that I am not weird for not being able to just put this behind me once and for all.

I do have some good news. I found some really good muffins made by the company Udi. If I didn't know I would never be able to tell that they were gluten free. It is amazing to be able to eat bread products again and enjoy it. I have some of their bread in the freezer that I haven't tried yet. But that is up next.

Thank you all so much for your support. It means so much to have people understand what I am going through. At times I feel so alone, and to be able to come here and get support makes it so much easier.

You are all so wonderful.