Does anyone out there on SSI/medicaid ever feel trapped? I'm still in my 20s, I've lived with a chronic illness my entire life and I have had 4 major (open heart) surgeries. I don't want to be living under the thumb of health insurance and their rules of what I can and can't do with my life but I need insurance in order to live. There is not a single second of my life that can be without medical insurance and I cannot, unfortunately, work full-time to earn it.
I just hate being so reliant on this organization...they're so fickle and judgmental and restrictive in areas where I feel it is none of their darn business.
There was a period were I couldn't even check the mail - I was so frightened by all of the letters they sent me, all of the jargon was confusing and just overwhelming. I don't know, thankfully, things have seemed to calmed down since I got off SSI (and I will never, EVER go back on it - I don't care if I have to live with my family for the rest of my life, I will never take their money again)

I was just curious if anyone else had anxiety or issues sprung from being dependent on these programs?