sorry my long winded sentence made you feel like i was saying you were having a tantrum. what i meant by referencing you previous post was i read your despair. i have learned i have a choice in how we deal with my dx. soon after learning my dx i would get so frustrated being bipolar. my T called them "tantrums" and for me it applied. going to bed feeling relatively good and waking up not even wanting to get out of bed, doom and gloom, etc. recently i had the worst depressive episode in 20 years. the difference today for me is that i have learned to realize i will experience these mood changes and adapt as best as i know how-many solutions-until it passes. for me, i have chosen to not let my dx define who i am. it is merely a facet of self. many ppl don't have to deal with what we do...i've often wondered how it would feel if i didn't have this illness. i'm sure some things would be easier for me. but the reality is that i am bipolar and my "tantrums" got me nowhere but more frustrated. so i worked in therapy on finding solutions and tools to cope.
in reply to the end of your last post, no, i haven't allowed my dx to crush my dreams nor has my dx crushed my dreams. if i had then i would have had no hope. so for that i am blessed.
so hope this clears up this misunderstanding. i need to watch my running sentences.