well actually i once used the term gender amorphous freak and i like that because, gender is a spectrum and i think many people change even throughout on life, and its more of like an inner balance when is hard to convey in language or, i guess its misleading, you'd have to be focused, like i guess thats more the reason I am a Priestess of Wanti, because that is the true me of who I am, but being is more of just a pool and things run by but I think most people who are like me don't really have so much of a distinction and its just clothes and stuff, thats whats its become i guess, just life, and i means a lot to me, because the internet is so beautiful and it reaches out to so many people, though sometimes its like, since it is a web, the connections are deep truly its been woven, and out of joy and out of the moment

knowing this what do these terms mean? exactly in their exposition, they come to a conclusion of exact equality, because though things are destroyed, they are also strange, the patriarch, i see among the accupunctured earth, accupuncture strange but in that situation was it right to be so amplely impaled?

thats the thing to me, living on pins and needles all the time, you see it, nature, the world, what is it really when you get past just the image down to what it means you feel, the whole thing really as it is. it doesn't really mean anything, inside and outside, the same energy is there which cascades out, and this is something i realized and i was like wow, maybe its best then a worth it to just chill and accept being, in a transendental sense but also a very down to earth way of just taking things as they come, now what this appears to be, because i dance, and I was for a long time dancing in a small area because my room is so messy, but I found this record player and now I dance in a bigger room, and its all so true, so all of this is living I guess, and really does it matter? i don't think so friend
because its just like walking around with your pants falling down
its funny, the entire thing is entirely different from what it seems like and throughout it, the peace that comes from these moments of just batting gently in the scope of it all seem to be the real seeds from which true kensho comes and suddenly i realize this writing and honestly maybe its worth the ridiculousness of the universe at large, where suddenly you see at last that true friend there, that old feeling, i can't explain it but its like a fire. THE FIRE OF LOVE!
it burns and its like, maybe its all a ritual or something and the plot has just totally been lost over time but then you would suppose that would probably be the point, like drum n bass music, I think, thats really something and its different, its more like a meditation, the whole experience of music is amazing, when you realize its just yourself, or in my case would it be true to assume that, just being alone, its kind of like, old ways, music, and songs.
and the places it can take you, the general feeling of it, I found that it translated into other things, more of a sequence, I guess, leading to moments where it just breaks down, and I was like wow, thats pretty much the way I view life, and its as simple as that its a drum pattern, thats what it comes down to, and that amazing but also, maybe its different we all have our own ways of approaching it, and sometimes we are in completely different realms, so really its like neither way is true how could any of this grasp the wholeness of what could never be said?