hey guy

You know something? It's all a matter of perspective. If you don't feel anything at times when others do, or in situation which normally would make a person tear up, it's ok. There are reasons for what you, just as I, do feel the way we feel and act upon it. My upbringing was so that i was taught from childhood to never show any emotions at all, except "normal" behavior to the outside world. So I was taught to put on a mask all the time. What that produced was kind of domino effect, which now my family and relatives notice and comment as being cold, and distant. What they don't realize is they helped shape this person that is I, so if there is anyone to blame and feel guilt and shame is them not I. I simply became emotionless when it came to life challenges that are not mine to deal with. On the other hand, this has given me a very good perspective on things as far as helping others, since I'm always very objective and empathic and calm when listening and sometimes even giving advice from a different stand point when others are in distress, yet I never get fazed out cose of what's going on with them, as i can't do anything to change the situation, be that loss of a relationship, health problems or even death of a loved one. The downside is that I can't do the same things in my own emotional life, and the smallest thing triggers so many alarms it's hard to keep a cool head. So once again to answer your question, it's ok when something happens and you feel nothing, to put it mildly it's just life, and life goes in phases and so for each beginning there is an end. Be good to yourself and do not feel guilty or shame, because other expect you to show emotions. You are your own man, and need no one tell you when you should show emotions and when not. You're human, though a very special kind, and I would embrace all of what you described as part of what makes you special. Sounds cliche, yet it is the truth.
All my best to you...