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Originally Posted by zooropa
Just the idea of not wanting to keep trying, not wanting to always be right or do right or do the best thing.
It's not about sui, at all. I guess it's more about wanting to use negative coping skills instead of putting the effort into using the new skills I've learned in therapy. It just feels like SO MUCH sometimes, and when I think about having to try to keep this up for the next 50 or so years, it's overwhelming and exhausting.
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There's a great term for this sort of feeling in 12 step programs. It's called the F***its. When you want to give in and do the wrong thing even though you know the consequences are going to suck big time.
I've got to agree with all the posters who advocate taking a mindful approach. Be here now. In the present. Let the next 50 years come one moment at a time and don't try to tackle them all at once. If the current moment is not so great, maybe the next one will be better.
