Im sick of it to but Im not goign to give up over my emotions. What I do is battle them and usually win but I think when were in that deep dark hole it seems to make it harder to battle the negative thoughts we have. I wish you the best I know serequel helped me when I had the money to afford it but if you cant then try some legal weed it really helps moods and blocks those bad feelings at least it works for me. I know not everyone likes weed.