velcro003, I guess there are 4 fears for me. One, I would be a fool to think any man would be interested in me. They never have been even when I was young. Except for the wrong reasons. Two, because Ive never had many friends or a close family I never learned how to bond to anyone emotionally. And also, Ive never been physically close to anyone, even family (hugs and stuff).Three, because the physical and emotional together mixed with the csa triggers would do me in. Four, I dont trust anyone, even myself. So I just advoid men altogether. I would have liked to of gotten married and had kids and done everything thats goes with that. But I know now that that will never happen and its ok. Thanks for being interested.