im really afraid he wants to be here but if this is wat i think i cant be here because i need honesty this time around , he wants me to trust him and hes afraid of loosing me but y should i have to go through this again

i also got problems with which bill to pay my mind has come up with the only way to sort this out is that we bought our house from the local housing assosiciation but now i cant afford the mortgage the loan even with his money this comes to over £800 a mth with out the over bills of everyday living and xmas is comming we are both on low paid jobs but with help from the govement but next year i loose some of that money because daughter will be of to uni then the year after my son will be 16 and if he has to stop taking his meds i will loose the money that i get for him so do i struggle for another 2 yrs to stay in this house i cant sell as i wont have enough to buy else were and pay back wat we owe as we only been buying for 4yrs if i loose the house which wont be nice they will rehouse me and my family as i have depedents then i will only have to pay rent which as i know from neighbours is only £300 a mth ,
i know this is not a nice thing to do but when i have to decide wat to choose from that isnt nice either im going to phone the mortgage company in a bit just plucking up the courage