i understand how you feel...when it feels like sh#t just keeps getting worse and worse. it is definitely NOT your fault. nobody wakes up and says "damn i wish i had depression". alot of parents are not that supportive, especially with things they dont understand. i try to think about what i want to do with my life and how im gonna get the F*&k out of here. i try to think of making a life for myself instead of thinking how crappy it is now...if your not happy now, then you have to make yourself happy, anyway you can. hang in there man