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buggedbybugs · Oct 04, 2010, 11:04 AM

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Originally Posted by jrae

because i haven't gotten better in the past three years, my parents think it's my fault. tonight, they cut any last hope there was of EVER trusting them again.

they ambushed me... told me i have five weeks to move into my grandma's house (she's in an assisted living home). i have that time to find a way to pay for it and all they'ed do is help with filing out the paperwork... i have to look up insurance numbers, loan info, utilities stuff and more...

i've been living with my parents for three years now. and in that time, i've never asked for anything except the ONE thing i KNEW i couldn't do, and that was support myself financially. if i could, i'd never moved back to this he--hole in the first place.

i met with my doc four weeks ago, and she could see that i was getting worse. that i was slowly losing my ability to keep trying, to keep fighting. then this sh-- goes and happens. it's times like these that i KNOW i'd be better off not being here at all. the one and ONLY thing still keeping me alive is my 5-month old baby kittens and their mom outside.

i've got two fav songs right now. each has their own chorus go like so:

"Help me. I'm caught between demons and angels. I'm fighting but I keep on falling..."
"How long can I keep on holding on..."

well, it sounds like your folks are a big part of your stress, they sure aint helping you!! have you checked into getting section8 or something like that? try to move out, you wont get better around people that think its your fault.if you cant move out, have you tried to get your parents to talk to your doctor? maybe that may help