Ooooh, motivation. Hear ya, vj! It drives me right up a wall. I get it with the don't-really-want-to-do stuff, but with the fun stuff? What's up with that?!

I'm a pretty firm believer in the pick one teeny tiny thing -- wash a spoon, pick a couple of flowers and stick them in a vase, put one thing where it actually belongs... like that. If anything will get me going, that is it.

Today however... I actually tackled a pretty significant thing (and hoping it will lead to more) It's been a super-rarity lately ('cept that one and half hypo days). Dyeing a coat for a Halloween costume. I always forget just how damn much rinsing it takes, lol! But it is done but for the drying. It's a pretty ambitious costume, but I know I could use a serious confidence boost. (Besides, there's a deadline. That does help.. ).The one thing I almost never doubt is a really significant ability to take a pile of crap and turn it into something fabulous. Everything else can go to hell, but that one I hang on to. Hard. I might not actually be able to manage it, but it's in mind. Ok, here's a funny. I dug out my very first therapy journal last night (thinking I could find a list of depression's first hints -- I know, like I don't know them, right?!) and came across this: Things I Like to Do. #3? Drink coffee. Lol.