((((jiakhan))))

Morgana is one of Rhain's alt's i think. A few of them pop up when she is retreating.

It's not exactly stalking darling but comes close.. okay so I am just as close to doing it with my ex.. so finally I deleted him from my FB and I am going to try very hard not to look at his emails etc. It doesn't do any good, if anything it just deepens the depression.

I would really like you to get counselling if you can. I'm back in therapy and I have to say that I know it will help me more than anything else.
Stop me acting on emotions and bring the rational side of me back.

I do understand what you are feeling and I do understand why you are going about everything like you are but for your sake you need to step back and look at it in a different way.
Did he ever give you any indication that he was interested in you? (I am not meaning too sound harsh)
take yourself back to a time before you had a crush on him.. and then re-capture the feelings.. no of him but just of you being you without him on your mind all of the time..