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Old Oct 05, 2010, 04:16 AM
ohmindy ohmindy is offline
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I am 30, overweight, in debt and have no degree. I remember feeling so full of potential. Although I have been battling depression since at least middle school, I used to have energy to fight back, but I don't know what to do anymore. I'll probably never have kids. I'm too poor and getting older. I can't imagine attracting anyone to love me, as I find myself disgusting. I don't have a passion to pursue or interests to even distract myself.

I quit smoking three weeks ago after a 14 year habit. I want the distraction and stimulant of smoking, but now that's too gross for me to go back to. I have found nothing to replace it.

I eat to feel something, but it's my loneliness that cripples me. I have friends, but they forget about me all the time. The friends that I've talked to about this told me that I expect too much out of people. The worst part is that I used to be a better friend, but now I have low expectations for myself in that regard as well.

I feel like life keeps telling me to lower my expectations and when I finally do, I haven't gone far enough. What's the point?