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Oct 05, 2010, 09:53 AM
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Inside myself? No , that's a joke, a set up: none can be trusted. The outside world holds too many contradictions to make finding truth possible. "Friends"...well I don't honestly know because I find that people tell you what they want you to hear and I hear it the way that's most comfortable. Or, my mind goes in the opposite direction and I believe no one. There is no middle ground. Black & white thinking....Old DBT rears it's ugly, controlling head.
Truth can be found in the dictionary. TRUTH: (noun) verity, authenticity, reality...that's where the disconnect occurs...Reality... what IS that? Whose IS it? It changes depending on whose "reality" we are talking about. Reality is volitile....unstable, and untrustworthy. It mutates depending on who owns it. Those with no agenda (but who can trust that?) say their truth is valid. Who among us has no agenda?
Around and around it goes...with no resolution, only more confusion, turning into a sort of paranoia. Maybe that is what's called for: paranoia. It can be safe because you are always on guard against the "untruth" and the "unreality". Well... enough philosophy. The answer is I don't know, I have never known for sure and I will never know. What can I do with that gem of wisdom? Most likely what I do best. I choose NOT to know or care or believe in anything. I choose to hide and doubt and live in suspicion and fear. I choose to sleep another week away.....
C
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