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Life matters? It did once in my life but now, I'm not sure.

<font color="#000088">it would be understandable for you to feel that way given what you endure and have endured for years on end.</font>

I live in automatic. If I'm alive in the morning well ok, if I am not well ok too. Whatever.

<font color="#000088">having been so depressed in previous episodes throughout life your above comments resonate so deeply. it is a very hard place to be in.....ambivalence about one's life is indicative of depressive thoughts creeping in or even totally pervading one's head.</font>

I am sorry that I am so negative.

<font color="#000088">you have nothing to apologize about. that you are posting is healthy.....it is hard to share one's pain and you are to be admired for doing so after you've previously expressed how difficult it is for you. ((time0)))</font>

I know I will get through this, one more time, for whatever reason. Probably because I have too. Probably because people around me wants me too so they can have someone to trash.

<font color="#000088">NO! you are not surviving through this just to be trashed by someone......you are learning heathier ways of coping each time....you've taken many steps over past year that show your ability to try different ways of getting help.....each time you learn more.</font>

I will make it

<font color="#000088">absolutely!!......sorry it isn't easier though.</font>

Thank you!

<font color="#000088">you are most welcome. thank you for continuing to keep in touch and keep expressing what's going on in your life. be gentle with yourself sweetie.</font>

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