Just wanted to share a triumph with you all. After not connecting with family members on my father's side for at least 30 years, I am now pleased to say that I have e-mailed them and I am being welcomed with open arms. I have no immediate family where I live . I am hoping to be able to understand the circumstances of my dad's life now, and not judge him so negatively. I am also writing and illustrating a booklet about my early years. I am writing this not to go on the open market, but for my own enjoyment, and for friends.
I am a 'family person', but wish I knew how to make friends. I have difficulty opening up to people. Is it because I dont know whether to trust people with my story? I think I have difficulty with boundaries: you know , knowing where I end and they begin. I am more sociable now than i've ever been (The ad's have helped me) Perhaps I am not meant to be a social butterfly, and destined to have a few good friends. My mom (who was very outgoing) would say to me 'no man is an island'. She also said that I was the 'most selfish person she has ever met!' Perhaps that is why I became a 'people pleaser. dawnhopeful