Hey you just answered your own question better than any of us could LOL. Good for you. Thank you for sharing and it's good to write down your feelings and then combat them with the positive.

You know if you ever get tired of what ever business you're in, you would make a great counselor or motivational speaker. Look how many days you kept your other thread going. Everyone has bad days, even bad years for that matter. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers....hang in there ((Renovation))