Hey so punk rock,
I noticed that you're in/around D.C.
Do you think it might help to get involved in a group around there?
It sounds like with your interest in music you have a lot to offer.
I happen to know of a few through another web site. Sometimes its just good to get out... I bet they could always use some volunteer help.
www.guerrillapoets.org
www.positiveforcedc.org
www.provisionslibrary.org
Hope you feel better.

ps. Are you seeing a therapist now? I have found it very helpful...
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