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Originally Posted by lynn P.
Hi Marjan - what I'm about to say isn't a popular opinion(may get boos) and it may not be an option for you at all. If I was in your shoes had financial stability, but didn't have any luck with finding a stable partner - I would go ahead and have a baby. It's really no different than being like many single mothers out there or a woman who ends up pregnant after a one time encounter. To me it's not fair a woman should be motherless just because she hasn't found a partner. Have you tried legitimate dating sites where they match people based on their traits and goals?
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Thanks lynn for your suggestion....Actually, I thought about that, but I'm afraid that I'm not ready to handle a baby all by myself....
I can't stop thinking about a baby....I wake up with anxiety thinking that if it's possible for me to have a baby....then any baby I see on the road, I want to hug....and I feel sad that I don't have one....It feels like a little girl that cries for a doll....
I tried match.com and plentyoffish.com....I met a good guy on match, and a very bad guy on plentyoffish.com....the good guy after three times seeing him find a job in UK, he tells me that he will be back within a year, but he doesn't give me any promises at all....and I can see him getting online too....He was just here for a weekend and we had one great evening together....but as my time is running, I can't open up my heart and my hope for him....I didn't let to have sex with him, because I know the connection that brings for me....I don't need that at all....I feel more on control when there is no sex, specially at this begining with a long distance romance.....plus him being on the online dating site yet!!!! (I can't blame him, there is no commitment between us)
The bad guy turned me off so much, I just met him once and he got so obsess with me and then when he found out I'm not going out with him, he sent me his naked pic and text me bad words....naming me bad stuff...Unbelievable, I went out with him just once, just for couple of hours...and I didn't kiss or anything....It was so scary for me....I deleted myself from that site, plentyoffish.com and I hide my profile from match....I know eharmony has better privacy and it's more expensive...but still not sure if I'm brave enough to get on that?
thanks again for reading my rants.....I'm okay in general, but feeling lonely hurts...
Marjan