I wish I could have the experiences that some of you are writing about. I'm not very good at eye contact with anyone, though I tried hard with my last T. With this T, I'm afraid to look at her. I get most of the "work" done with my eyes closed. When she holds my hand, I try to look at her but it's very difficult. I'm afraid of what I would feel; it might be like her tapping on my knees. It's just scary for me.