I think I will be ok until my pdoc appt. I'm going to try to use my time productively and exercise more. I have a sudden urge to go shopping but I will try to go with a friend so I don't end up spending lots of money. Working at my job is helping me to release some of my energy. Thanks for the advice!

I'm still trying to decide whether or not I should be taking meds. On one hand I feel like I wouldn't have to worry so much about having an manic episode but I'm afraid of side effects of the meds. It's ironic because I work in a pharmacy but I don't like taking meds LOL. My depressions are usually not too extreme and I am not suicidal. I guess it is all about the quality of life for me. Whether I want to live in fear of getting sick and ending up in the hospital. I really really don't want to go back to the hospital though. Not sure what I should do...