My depression is unrelenting - it feels like it is attacking me all the time, everywhere and everything I do - and it is making me so ANGRY!

I rage and lash out at the drop of a hat - mostly inside my head - but on another chat site I let loose with a fury I didnt even know I could produce and in a public forum where I never would have let myself lose control like that - but the anger just oozes through me - poisoning me - am I really this person - I dont know who this person is anymore - I hate this person - how truly evil do you have to be to have so much anger, disgust, loathing flowing thru your person. And once your soul is poisoned with it, can you ever reclaim it?