Dear Deli.

When I get down like this T reminds me that it took many, many years of events to put me where I was when I started therapy; then she reminds me of some things that were true of me then, which aren't now; they may not sound like much to someone else, if I were to list them, but I have to admit she's right. Then she will say, it takes a while to undo all that, try to be patient.

And I had to realize that it's not one for one - one year of abuse for one year of healing necessarily; could be shorter, could be longer, and I will never know which is which tilll it happens (or takes time happening). In the mean time I give thanks that I DO have quality help, and I try to work with the process and not hinder it; that's all anyone can do.

BTW..... I don't know if this will help you... but after a while, "half a decade" can go by in the blink of an eye; it isn't really all that long.