I'm glad you have a pdoc that is helping. Keeping up with your meds is one of the most important things and also one of the most difficult when finances won't allow.

I agree that if you can find a new job that may help the problem a lot. A job is one of our highest priorities but it is not worth sacrificing our health. I hope you can find something new quickly, maybe it will be something that pays better and that you enjoy more. If you like this current job, also wondering if there is an easy way to enforce your doc's recommendation... I mean if you work somewhere that has chemicals you are allergic to, and your doc writes you a letter saying you have to stay out of the areas where that chemical is found, it must be a violation of OSHA or disability laws if the boss continues to force you to do that. As always though, rocking the boat may do more harm in "good will" than it is worth and you may end up wanting a new job anyway... but it might be worth checking.

>>It's just hard to believe that after nearly 50 years on this earth that there is no one who cares enough about me to call up every now and then...but I guess I haven't made a lot of calls myself.

This is something I constantly struggle with myself. Constantly. I also know that I withdraw and isolate myself... but it seems that even when I try and reach out, no one is there. I suppose that the urge to isolate is hard to break through... but if I am trying I would think that maybe someone who understands would at least try to meet me halfway.