Fuzzybear,
Please don't change who you are.
You are the very best you there is!!!
I always look forward to your posts.
There have been times when that dancing bear (to begin with) has really cheered me up. And I mean that. I have actually felt lighter to see that little bear.
The only thing I hope you can change a little bit is how hard you are coming down on yourself.
Maybe try to repeat these words just a couple of times:
"I am a good person."
"I deserve to be treated well."
"I deserve to be treated fairly."
"I am important for simply being who I am."
Many hugs to you today...