I do understand what you're saying about self-fulfilling prophesies. I'm sure that by now in my life, in many ways, that does happen to me..

But in this case, where I've already tried so many approaches, my fears are based on how they've already responded.

My ex-therapist will talk to me a little, but won't contact them because even he thinks they will resent his intervening, which will cause more hostility towards me. So not just my take on the situation.

I have Tourette's, and getting them to understand how it affects my behavior and other symptoms has been a struggle. They either dismiss it or don't believe it. And if I say this can be validated by others who have it, they tell me I'm reading too much and talking to too many others.

An advocate from the Tourette's Assoc. offered to meet with them for an hour or so to give them more of an idea of what it involves and how best to help me.

A very reasonable and constructive suggestion, so I thought.

The answer from my main case manager, who got very annoyed when I suggested it, said "Dr. B is a trained psychiatrist. She knows what she's doing." (She already has admitted to me she has no experience with TS)

The answer from a 2nd worker I approached with the same suggestion. "We're busy and have full schedules. We don't have time to sit and talk with another professional."

My first therapist there was given a gag order and told she could no longer discuss or advocate any case management issues with me. (How dare they dictate what i can and can't do in my sessons!)

It was one of the reasons she finally quit , just a couple of weeks later. I miss her terribly. She was one of the best shrinks I ever had.

However, today i found an obscure contact called Community Advocacy Project. They are sending me releases to sign. I don't know if they can help, or if they really will, but I"ll try anything at this point.

I'm sure my workers will be hostile, but it seems whether I'm a good, quiet little mentally ill girl or not, they treat me the same. So what the hell. Couldn't make it any worse.
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Then again, i shouldn't say that. I've found that there's always worse. Worse can be very creative.

Debby