(((hugs))) if you wish them. I, too, am a Christian. The act of forgiving is for our own good... not something required at all... in that sense. What was described ... where you referred.... leaves something to be desired in the English language. Forgiving someone over and over or even once means they have repented of their behavior, and have ASKED you to forgive them. Be gentle with yourself on this, ok? God doesn't exact such punishment on us in this!